Every night during our UECM Leadership Training Camp, I would always sit by our room's balcony...Looking up the wonderful night sky and the dark shadows of the mountains afar...
Admiring God's handiwork and how worthy is He to be praised for such creations...Enjoying the cool breeze that blew softly through my hair...Talking and sharing the craziest things in my life with one of my closest friends in our church...and ofcourse vice versa...:-) We would share about the things that happened in our lives when we were in Manila within the year that's about to pass in a few more days...Secrets about our offenses and how bad we were when we were kids...stories about guys who we dislike very much and ofcourse also the ones we've liked(which includes our criteria!) haha...and also the present things that is happening in camp... we'd do that every night and gave each other advices on how to deal with our problems back at the city...
Then everytime she'd get tired and go to sleep,I'd still be left alone...Reminiscing the things that happened in the past...And asking myself, "what were you doing then?Why did you waste your time crying becuz of your problems,while you should have been enjoying yourself?"
Then I realized that I was indeed wasting too much time in trying to solve my problems...Thinking too much and pressuring myself about them...and about what people around think about me...Realizing how scared I was and trying to escape from them....After I prayed and talked to God....I later on realized that it's all part of life and God's plan...that He would provide and protect me from such things and be my comforter and refuge...Putting into mind that everything would be fine as long as He's by my side and He'll guide me in my journey to righteousness...and also seeing these things as trials from God to test me...And finally promising to be a faithful follower of His,giving my life and thanking Him for everything He'd provided me since...:-)
Admiring God's handiwork and how worthy is He to be praised for such creations...Enjoying the cool breeze that blew softly through my hair...Talking and sharing the craziest things in my life with one of my closest friends in our church...and ofcourse vice versa...:-) We would share about the things that happened in our lives when we were in Manila within the year that's about to pass in a few more days...Secrets about our offenses and how bad we were when we were kids...stories about guys who we dislike very much and ofcourse also the ones we've liked(which includes our criteria!) haha...and also the present things that is happening in camp... we'd do that every night and gave each other advices on how to deal with our problems back at the city...
Then everytime she'd get tired and go to sleep,I'd still be left alone...Reminiscing the things that happened in the past...And asking myself, "what were you doing then?Why did you waste your time crying becuz of your problems,while you should have been enjoying yourself?"
Then I realized that I was indeed wasting too much time in trying to solve my problems...Thinking too much and pressuring myself about them...and about what people around think about me...Realizing how scared I was and trying to escape from them....After I prayed and talked to God....I later on realized that it's all part of life and God's plan...that He would provide and protect me from such things and be my comforter and refuge...Putting into mind that everything would be fine as long as He's by my side and He'll guide me in my journey to righteousness...and also seeing these things as trials from God to test me...And finally promising to be a faithful follower of His,giving my life and thanking Him for everything He'd provided me since...:-)
*This happened during our Leadership Camp last December 2006 :-)
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I just noticed these former posts now...they are very, very encouraging. It is my joy and the joy of many to see you growing more and more into God's woman. May He be your constant guide, friend, and master :)
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